She's me

害怕~

2012-01-27T21:00:00.001-08:00

27-12-2012 , 8:36p.m ~

现在的我真的很害怕，害怕失去你，除了害怕也不懂能做什么了。感觉你好像离我好远了，提心吊胆的看你回的每封信息，害怕下一封信息你又不要我了。为什么我已感觉不到你以前对我的爱？是否是我自己想太多？还是你真的已经不爱我了？几天前的我们还很好的啊，为什么才几天就变成酱了呢？老公，你能变会像以前那样吗？我真的会乖。我现在常常在想，一定是老公工作太累了才会变得像这样。老公是不是？过了新年，你就会像以前那样对吧。
多几天就是我们在一起5个月了，我们能开开心心的一起度过吗？我真的真的很希望和你永远都在一起。不要再对我忽冷忽热了好不好老公？答应我，爱我，回到以前那样。

My Desire and Eager~ :(

2011-12-25T02:30:00.001-08:00

25-12-2011 , 2:24a.m ~
Time was late , i feel sleepy and my eyelids started to droop. Anyway i'm still not decide go to bed now. Hmmm , I'm still waiting for someone (he's deserve to be wait). While waiting for him , I am bored so I'm blogging again.

I had viewed many pictures that my friends took when they going for a trip or travel.I have a feel of jealousy and envy... :( I hope to have a nice trip also. Absolutely ! Where to go,It's doesn't matter but for sure not in perak (my hometown). I shouldn't waste my beautiful holiday but i think it's difficult to avoid... Where am I going to find a companion and $$ to go? It's indeed a big problem! So at the eleventh hour, I should give up the idea of being a trip.

Christmas is came, but for me ,it really does not make sense. Hmmm, maybe because of i never have celebrate "Christmas". Of Course, this year has no exception. But the annoyed for me is i have to be alone at home during the Christmas eve. :S so, I stayed alone at home, doing nothing.Be honestly, I really scared to be alone and i hate it.At the same time,for my bie ,he's more pity because he need to work. :( I knew he felt sorry about cant celebrate with me but I won't blame on him because he has his own difficulties.

Anyway, wish all of you a merry Christmas! :)

Merry Christmas n a Happy New Year !!

Sense of security~

2011-12-12T01:04:00.001-08:00

11-12-2011 (11:53 p.m.) -Is time to update my blog... Erm... i would like to talk about sense of security...What is 'sense of security' ? It's just mean 安全感 in chinese... Sense of security plays an important role in a relationship...Without the sense of security , it's quite difficult to maintain a relationship...So, we need to offer a sense of security but remember not to undermine it...

Sadly for me,i always lack of sense of security in my relationship...I try hard to boost my sense of security but it seems in vain... :( He is good , really good for me and treat me very well...he try to offer me the sense of security but i cant get it...That's my fault...Facing this problem i'm getting on my nerve!!I thinks the main reason is i'm not good enough and he's really good...but i'm not mean i'm treat him badly...i means the appearance problem...I feel so inferior! Around him,really have too many girl...I knew he would not betray me but i still afraid n worried...Sometime i really hope to tell him about how i worry for him, I really will mind those things but i scared he cant understand me...Bie i wants to tell you that i really love you ,please provide me with a sense of security...

I'm sorry~

2011-12-09T13:19:00.000-08:00

Zizi & Me~❤

9 Dec 2011 (13:07) - I'm sorry Zizi wong... i don't have the ability to take care of u...I know u wan stay beside me but I have no choice...I need to go part time work...Don't cry Zizi... Be guai...Wait more 14days...Just 2 weeks...Saw my youngest sis shed the tears , but i cant do anything, I'm helpless... Sorry :'(

L.C.K & W.W.C

2011-12-08T16:24:00.000-08:00

L.C.K & W.W.C
08 Dec 2011 （16:17）-Yesterday,I alone at home almost a whole day ...Sit infront of the laptop and watching his pictures...So, whim to make this pic...I ❤ U
<<click the picture you can see animation~>>

Memory~

2011-12-07T23:53:00.000-08:00

Do you remember?

01-11-2011 ( 11:40p.m )- We took this picture~
But now it's become a memory~ :(

I Love You~

2011-12-07T16:54:00.000-08:00

I Love U

7th Dec 2011-I ❤ You...But it's funny that u not ❤ me...How much pain i felt when i look into your eyes but i see nothing ...I do love you and all i want is you to be happy, even if that means that i'm not a part of it...The hardest thing about knowing you don't love me is that you spent much time pretending that you did...Maybe the people around me are right...Maybe what i looking for is to difficult to get it...Maybe i am the stupid one for even thinking that you loved me...but it all maybe i am tired of being alone...Everytime i see you all cool , calm ,i lose my breath n i am painfully...I knew it's painful to say goodbye to someone that i don't want to let go but it's more painful to ask someone to stay if they never want to stay...12:13a.m. of 7Dec- finally you told me ur decision... <<WE BREAK BA>> this few words still keep in my heart deeply...This time i finally found the courage to walk out of ur life but i forgot to take my heart away from you...I never regret that i loved you...NEVER !!! Make me stay if you wan to do so even though wat you say is sweet but untrue...If you did, I'd running back to you...

Broken Heart~

Jealousy~

2011-12-06T17:54:00.000-08:00

Jealousy is a familiar experience in human relationships...Jealousy is something very horrible...It can make a couple to lose their happiness and sweetness...Most people who have jealousy issues in their lives don't realize how big the issues truly are and how much their jealousy is affecting the people around them...We've found that for many people, their jealousy becomes sort of like a blind spot and they can't see how bad their jealous behavior is affecting their relationships in negative ways.I hate it !!! Please leave me n him far away...Don't even near us!!! I thought i have a hap
py day with him today... Unfortunately,it is a worst ending for me...We don't have much time but why we still need to waste the valuable time? Is it for you i just have a lot of weakness ? Why i never get your praise before? At the eleventh hour i just noticed tat you hate me...

Today's schedule~

2011-12-06T13:00:00.000-08:00

7th Dec 2011-I have to hang out with babe today...Parade is our destination...For me where we go , the most important is i'm together with bie...soon i will go KL to work so i think tis is the last time i can hang out with bie...I cant imagine what will happen as the time passes...but hopefully it's getting better n better...Now I stay at home alone waiting for my bie while updating my blog...God bless me to have a happy journey today... No argument No quarrel ...

My 1st post~

2011-12-06T02:00:00.000-08:00

6Dec2011/0136-i whim to have my own blog because I desperately want to express my feeling now... Times fly like an arrow , the troubles getting more n more as time pass...Soon i will finish my SPM examination ( 7th Dec ) ...I planned to have some part time jobs because money is essential to me now... 4.30pm i received my sis's call from KL , she informed me that i was be hired to work at KL from 8th until 23th Dec... I knew tat i should get tis job but sadly i got severe homesick :( N i miss my babe...I really cant leave my home n him even through it's just been a while...Without hesitation, i call bie immediately n ask for advise...He is supporting me to get the job so i promised my sis...I get to know i need to go there by train alone... :"( It's really terrible for me... I didn't have tis type of experiences before...I really scared but i cant express it out...How am i going to do now? Can somebody tell me? I told myself I need to be strong n I know tat he is always beside me... I need to be independent!! It's time to stop now... I hope i can have a sweet dream to night, stop thinking all the things annoyed me...Goodnight n sweetdream~